This one line in his song "Cause if you recall, our anniversary falls 11 nights into June." is extremely similar to Miley's line in her autobiography written awhile back which said "I remember the exact date, June 11 2006. It was the day I met my first love."
Okay so I did some research after hearing the song, and somehow ended up reading the entire chapter in Miley's autobiography about her 'Prince Charming', and the full lyrics to Nick's song. And I'm still not sure if I was just over emotional in that moment, or had been watching too many episodes of The Voice on YouTube, but I began to cry. Not like the "that's so sweet" kind of soft crying, but the hardcore, hand-over-mouth and hand-over-heart crying. Because something in me identified itself with them. The same broken-heartedness and maturity that I knew could only come with loving somebody.
Miley wrote, "My mom doesn't believe there's such thing as being too young or too naive to fall in love. In my family, when you fall in love, that's it. No one called it puppy love, or made fun of me."
And she said, "I had my biggest heartbreak at 14, although that sounds crazy, because I was 14. But that was what love was to me."
I can't be the only one that gets that, right? That gets told that I'm too young. That gets told that I may think I love him, but I don't even know love. And that I should try to get over it. Because that's about the only thing anyone ever said to me. And for a really long time, I was in denial myself. Thinking like, 'I'll probably look back on this when I'm older and be like, he meant nothing to me, I was just young and had my priorities screwed up.' But no. I realized now that that is NOT true. Because that boy meant a lot to me. And many years down the road, chances are, he still would. Even if we aren't close anymore, or worse - aren't even friends... if he were to come to me, I would be there for him in a second. For anything.
And that's frightening to me - how much you can love someone. Even if they don't love you anymore, or don't love you back at all. It's frightening how you are willing to sacrifice your happiness for theirs. It's frightening how you never run out of second chances. It's frightening how every word they say and thing they do means 100 times more than anyone else. It's frightening how you care more about their wellbeing than your own. It's frightening how you lose all ability to imagine yourself loving anyone else.
"No. I don't want to love, if it's not you."
But it's also incredible.
Before playing their new song for the first time live, Nick made a speech about how he had to write this song because it was how he was feeling in the moment. He also said "It's an incredible thing and it should be valued when you appreciate someone and care for someone."
And I agree. Everyone experiences love in their own way. For some, it could mean loving that person enough to wait years and years to be with them, and for others, it could mean loving that person enough to push them away. So don't go telling someone that they don't truly love somebody because they didn't do this or feel that. It's different for everyone. But when we do fall for someone, it will make us a better person that we ever thought that we could be. It will make us do things and say things that we never thought we'd be able to. And that's how you know if you love someone. See, it might tear us down, but in the long run, we come out of it stronger. And that's what makes it so incredible to love someone.
And I just sat there, in front of my laptop, like... wow. I was hopelessly in love with him, wasn't I? And no one was going to tell me otherwise. And since Wedding Bells was playing in the neighboring tab, I was forced to think about what if one day, he came to me, and told me that he was getting married? And what if it wasn't to me? Of course, I'd be upset, jealous as hell even. But would I stop him? From being the happiest that he could be? Of course not.
"I don't want to hear the wedding bells chime."
Nick carried on to say, "But as you move on in your life, and move into maturity, you have to take the experience with you as memories and not your reality." I guess he wrote that song in the moment and although he may not feel the same way as he did writing it, the song reflects the feelings that remain and reveal themselves even after a long while.
Almost 2 years before I decided to stop waiting on you. And until today, I still don't know if, in those almost 2 years, you knew that I was waiting. But I was.
I don't really know if Nick is over Miley and if Miley is over Nick. But it's been years since, and they've been with different people. Yet, I don't doubt that they are capable of feeling these feelings again, now.
What the hell is the definition of getting over somebody? You could stop thinking about them on a regular basis, and you could start liking other people. But if those old feelings start surfacing again, does it mean that you were never truly over them at all?
To me, I am over you. And that means that I am no longer in love with you. So I no longer crave to see you all the time, or text you 24/7. And I don't want to be with you anymore. But I still do love you. I still care when you're hurt. I still want you to find a girl as great as you are. I still want you to be happy. And ever so often, when we talk, I feel like I miss you. And I think that's something that will always be there. And it doesn't mean that I'm not over you. Because if getting over someone you were in love with, means having absolutely no feelings or care towards that someone anymore, I don't think I can ever get over you. To me, getting over someone simply means accepting things as they come. Accepting that you might not end up together, accepting that they might be with someone else. And being okay with it. You don't have to be pleased, or happy. Just... okay.
So yeah. If you ever put me on the spot with an announcement like that, that you were in love with someone else and that you were incredibly happy, I'll give you a smile and tell you I'm happy for you. I might begin to hurt on the inside and let my feelings get the better of me for awhile. Maybe even write a song or a blog post that could potentially screw things up between us, then apologize for it. But in the end, I'll be okay.
