I told you so.

I'm sure nobody enjoys being wrong, or being proven wrong. But there are some rare occasions in which we don't mind if we are, or actually even wish that we were. Is that why we refuse to accept good news sometimes? Because we know that it's probably true, but we don't wanna be disappointed if it turns it's not. So we act like it could never happen, even though on the inside, you believe it will, and you're wishing that someone will prove you wrong. And that's because it's almost human instinct, a basic survival skill... to prepare for the worst, but hope for the best.

You know what I mean. Yeah, sure. I'm talking about telling everyone you're gonna "FAIL" a test, so no one has high expectations for you, including yourself. Then you kinda have that secret hope that you're gonna do well.

But I'm also talking about when someone tells you that they think your crush likes you. And on the inside, you're like.

But of course, you don't wanna say it out loud, cause you don't want to disappoint yourself, in the event that it isn't true. So you just keep a poker face, like.

"Nah."

And you wait for your friends to disagree with you, and start listing reasons why you should believe them. And you'll keep on denying it, but you'll know that that's what you planned all along. Because everyone just wants assurance. And if it turns out to be true, you'll act surprised. Like you never expected it to happen. 

Think about it. Why do people bother taking those "Does he like you?" quizzes? Or read magazine articles (or blog posts ;) ) about how to know if somebody likes you? Because we love it. We crave it. We all want to hope. You say no, so your friends will remind you again, why it's a yes. You just want to be sure that you don't let your thoughts run wild, until you're 100% sure that it's the truth.

Why? Because we wanna be surprised when it does happen? Because we don't wanna seem overconfident, or conceited? Possibly. But why do we put in so much effort to convince ourselves that we just aren't that lucky? To make ourselves look on the darker side of things? It's because we're scared. Because we don't wanna get hurt. It's become such a routine for us - automatic, even. To immediately expect the worst out of a situation. It's our way of protecting ourselves, our system of self-defense. But it's not foolproof, you know. We might think that if we don't expect the best, we won't be disappointed. 

Which, chances are, we still will be.

You turn yourself down before you can even get a chance to see for yourself. Cause if it doesn't end with a happy ending, we can pretend like we knew it wouldn't all along. But who are we kidding? You know you wanted it to. You know you were hoping for it to. 

Whether we say we believe it or not, our heart is still going to hope. That's just what it does, that's it's job. To hope for the best. It leaves preparing for the worst, to the brain. Where other logical thinking is carried out. But the heart keeps hoping. And secretly, you know wanted the story to end with one of your friends telling you that you should've listened to them, cause they were right.

I'm sure no one enjoys being wrong, or being proven wrong. But there are some rare occasions in which we want and hope to be. And of course, though we try to deny it on the surface, and act like we're confident it's false, we're still holding on to that thin thread of hope. And maybe, just maybe. We'll get what we've been hoping to hear all along, from the people that believed what we were too afraid to.

"I told you so."