The In-Between

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Imagine a life without extremes.

It’s neither hot nor cold. The water doesn’t scorch your tongue, or freeze your brain. It’s just water. It’s neither wet nor dry. The rain doesn’t flood your home and carry your couch along with it, and the sun doesn’t turn your lawn brown. It’s just weather. It’s neither loud nor soft. You don’t have to stop breathing just to make out the words being said, and you don’t have to plug your ears to block out the noise being made. It’s just sound. It’s neither famous nor obscure. It’s not a hipster blog with 10,000 over followers, and it’s not a personal blog with only 1. It’s just a blog on tumblr. 

It’s not your best friend and it’s not your enemy. It’s not anyone that makes you melt, or drives you insane. It’s just another face in the crowd. It’s not a number that you’ve put on speed dial, and it’s not a number that you’ve blocked from your phone. It’s just a bunch of digits in your phonebook.

The in-between is not the cute guy in your algebra class that makes you smile with handwritten notes during lessons. Neither is it the only boy in your life that can make you cry yourself to sleep every single night. It’s not the first person you think of in the day and it’s not the last. Not someone that makes your heart flutter, not someone that make your fists clench. 

People don’t seem to notice anything unless it’s something extremely good, or extremely bad. Anything in-between, is just…there.

The in-between is a place. And it’s where I’m at. 

It’s no longer a schoolgirl crush. I’m no longer staying up late every night just to text you. And it’s no longer a grudge. I no longer avoid your presence or your phone calls. 

And it’s the same with you, isn’t it? 

If something were to happen to you, I wouldn’t be the first person you’d tell. I also wouldn’t be the person that you’d deliberately try to hide it from. I’d just be someone that heard about it. 

So that’s it then. 

No more jealousy, or disgust. I’m way past that. All that's left is feelings. Not hate, not love. Or maybe, it's both.

I no longer have to be with you every second of every day. I’m not pulling myself away, I’m not pushing myself closer. I’m just here. I’ve been to both extremes, from loving you to hating you. But if there’s one place that I’ve always been, it’s here. I’ve always been here. I’m always going to be here. And maybe that’s the problem.

I don’t love you. And I always will. 

The in-between is a place. And to me, it’s the worst place to be.

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Re-creating Fairytales

What is up with Hollywood and Fairytale-based movies?? I don't know if you guys have noticed, but there has been an increasing number of movies like these recently.

I mean, don't get me wrong, some of em are really good. And because it's originally based on a fairytale that we are all familiar with, we obviously know how it's gonna end. So why do we still enjoy watching them so much? We complain about lack of originality or cliche-ness in movies, but that's exactly what we love. Maybe Hollywood's catching on to this and is just giving us what we want. ;)

Let's recap shall we?

Cinderella:

Walt Disney's Cinderella (1950, original)

A Cinderella Story (2004)

Another Cinderella Story (2008)

A Cinderella Story: Once Upon A Song (2011)

Snow White:

Walt Disney's Snow White And The Seven Dwarfs (1937, original)

Sydney White (2007)

Enchanted (2007)

Mirror Mirror (2012)

Snow White And The Huntsman (2012)

Beauty And The Beast:

Beauty And The Beast (1946, original)

Wat Disney's Beauty And The Beast (1991)

Beauty And The Briefcase (2010)

Beastly (2011)

I think my favorite remake has to be Beastly (: maybe cause I just adore Vanessa Hudgens. And LOVE Alex Pettyfer haha. 

Okay, so we all know the "original" fairytales, and can identify the modern twist that was added in every movie right? Like in the original cinderella story, she lost her glass slipper, but in the subsequent movies, she began misplacing her iPod, her cellphone etc... 

Yeah. We all know the remake of the movies had some sort of twists or changes. But do we know the TRUE origins of some of these fairytales? Disney didn't write em all on their own. A lot of these fairytales were taken from Brothers Grimm, which if you don't know, write really gruesome, twisted stories. Disney simply slotted in a happy ending and made it popular. 

Interested to know how some of these fairytales were supposed to turn out? Great. So am I.

Little Red Riding Hood

So in the version we all read about as a kid, there's this little girl who's traveling through the woods to her Grandmother's house. And foolishly tells a wolf where she's heading to. 

He gets there first, eats the grandmother, climbs in bed and wears her clothes. She tells him how big his teeth are, etc and then he eventually eats her too. Then all of a sudden, a random woodsman comes in and kills the wolf with his axe, and cuts Red Riding Hood and her grandma out. HOORAY.

But in the original story, the wolf eats her and the grandma. And they die. The. End. That's  it. In other older versions, it was mentioned that the wolf cooked the grandmother and fed it to Red Riding Hood instead. And then ate her afterwards. How fabulous.

Snow White

This one we are pretty much still familiar with right? I mean, with all the recent Snow White movies and all. Okay so to recap, an evil queen thinks Snow White is prettier than her, sends a huntsman to kill her and bring back her heart as proof. The huntsman gives Snow a chance to run and she seeks refuge in a house with 7 dwarfs. 

The queen finds out she isn't really dead, and slips her a poisoned apple which puts her into a coma. Until the lovely prince comes along to wake her by kissing her. And they both live happily ever after.

What they didn't tell you, was how the queen didn't only want Snow White's heart for proof. But she wanted to eat it. In the original story, she had asked for Snow's liver, lungs, and other body parts to consume as well. 

Also, in the original story, Snow White was only 7 years old when the story occurred. So unless the prince was around that same age, there's a real question of Pedophillia in this story....

Cinderella

Probably the most commonly referred to fairytale. Ever. When ever the word "happy ending" comes up, we all immediately think of this one. So yes, the fairy godmother gives her a pumpkin carriage and a beautiful outfit and sends her off to this ball, where she meets her prince but has to run off at midnight.

He finds the slipper that fell off her foot while she was running, searches the whole town until he finds her. He finds her. The end.

But the part that either got lost in translation, or simply wasn't fit to be on the big screen, was that in their desperation to fit the glass slipper, Cinderella's two step-sisters mutilated their own feet. Cutting off the toes, and shaving off the heels. Whole ten yards, to fit into the slipper.

Yuck.

I'm pretty sure there's plenty more of where that came from. Could you imagine if Disney hadn't edited some of these stories? *Shudder* 

But recently, the gore and twisted-ness has slowly been creeping back in into the movies. Like in Snow White and the Huntsman, and Red Riding Hood (the Amanda Seyfried one). Who knows? Maybe they'll start unveiling the true versions of these fairytales soon. 

Updates (:

Hey, how's everyone doing! It feels like forever since I last posted. Been studying my ass off for the mid-year exams. Hope it pays off!

 Well, I'm currently in the process of trying to move this entire blog onto tumblr!!!! But it's harder than I thought ): that's probably just because I'm such a noob at all this online stuff.

So, updates!!!

#1. Wardrobe Makeover
I threw out half my wardrobe. (Literally.) Got rid of all the stuff I don't wear anymore and gave em away. But in case you're interested in buying some of em, click here. I also took a load of stuff I don't wear anymore and did lots of like reconstructing. ;) Here are some of my projects!

Go ahead and contact me if you're interested in any of em (: Or see more here.

All my friends always tell me I have a lot of clothes and yeah I agree. But like, I realized that majority of them sit in my closet, untouched for months, years, even. So might as well get rid of them right? I guess another reason I cleared out half my closet was to make space for more new stuff!

Each hanger in my closet used to hold 2 garments each. So yay each shirt gets its own hanger now (: plus, I have a whole list of items to get before my trip to Europe!

Speaking of which....

#2. Liberty Of The Seas
Did I forget to mention that Barcelona just happens to be the fashion capital of Spain? YAY. Also the home of:

I CAN'T WAIT! Just two more weeks of school, and it's the holidays!!! I'll be flying off to Barcelona on the 31st at 12am, (30th midnight) by Singapore airlines. (: Then staying 2 days in Barcelona before boarding the Liberty. And then it'll be non-stop sailing for a week! Then back to Barcelona for a couple more days before I fly back home (:

I think there'll be computers and wifi aboard the ship, but I don't know how I feel about uploading pictures from my camera into a random public space. So, I'll either bring my own laptop (very unlikely). Or I'll just upload pictures from my phone, then upload those from my camera when I'm back in Singapore.

So two full days of cruising, and 5 days where we'll be docked on various ports in Europe (:

Ports of calls on the cruise include:

Provence (Toulon), France

Villefranche (Nice), France

Livorno (Florence), Italy

Civitavecchia (Rome), Italy (Like in the Lizzie McGuire movei hahaha)

Naples (Capri), Italy

So I'll get a good mix of vintage shops, famous fashion brands, clear beaches and national monuments (:

Yeah that's about it for now. Will post soon, I promise!

Take care guys :) x

I told you so.

I'm sure nobody enjoys being wrong, or being proven wrong. But there are some rare occasions in which we don't mind if we are, or actually even wish that we were. Is that why we refuse to accept good news sometimes? Because we know that it's probably true, but we don't wanna be disappointed if it turns it's not. So we act like it could never happen, even though on the inside, you believe it will, and you're wishing that someone will prove you wrong. And that's because it's almost human instinct, a basic survival skill... to prepare for the worst, but hope for the best.

You know what I mean. Yeah, sure. I'm talking about telling everyone you're gonna "FAIL" a test, so no one has high expectations for you, including yourself. Then you kinda have that secret hope that you're gonna do well.

But I'm also talking about when someone tells you that they think your crush likes you. And on the inside, you're like.

But of course, you don't wanna say it out loud, cause you don't want to disappoint yourself, in the event that it isn't true. So you just keep a poker face, like.

"Nah."

And you wait for your friends to disagree with you, and start listing reasons why you should believe them. And you'll keep on denying it, but you'll know that that's what you planned all along. Because everyone just wants assurance. And if it turns out to be true, you'll act surprised. Like you never expected it to happen. 

Think about it. Why do people bother taking those "Does he like you?" quizzes? Or read magazine articles (or blog posts ;) ) about how to know if somebody likes you? Because we love it. We crave it. We all want to hope. You say no, so your friends will remind you again, why it's a yes. You just want to be sure that you don't let your thoughts run wild, until you're 100% sure that it's the truth.

Why? Because we wanna be surprised when it does happen? Because we don't wanna seem overconfident, or conceited? Possibly. But why do we put in so much effort to convince ourselves that we just aren't that lucky? To make ourselves look on the darker side of things? It's because we're scared. Because we don't wanna get hurt. It's become such a routine for us - automatic, even. To immediately expect the worst out of a situation. It's our way of protecting ourselves, our system of self-defense. But it's not foolproof, you know. We might think that if we don't expect the best, we won't be disappointed. 

Which, chances are, we still will be.

You turn yourself down before you can even get a chance to see for yourself. Cause if it doesn't end with a happy ending, we can pretend like we knew it wouldn't all along. But who are we kidding? You know you wanted it to. You know you were hoping for it to. 

Whether we say we believe it or not, our heart is still going to hope. That's just what it does, that's it's job. To hope for the best. It leaves preparing for the worst, to the brain. Where other logical thinking is carried out. But the heart keeps hoping. And secretly, you know wanted the story to end with one of your friends telling you that you should've listened to them, cause they were right.

I'm sure no one enjoys being wrong, or being proven wrong. But there are some rare occasions in which we want and hope to be. And of course, though we try to deny it on the surface, and act like we're confident it's false, we're still holding on to that thin thread of hope. And maybe, just maybe. We'll get what we've been hoping to hear all along, from the people that believed what we were too afraid to.

"I told you so."

They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair.

It's funny how people always have something to talk about. To criticize you about. And the ones that talk the most, know you the least. Whether it's what you say, or how you say it. What you wear, and how you wear it. No matter what you do, there's going to be someone out there who's gonna hate you for it. I'm sure no one enjoys being criticized for every little thing they do, right?

Everyone is guilty of judging others,

everyone is a hypocrite.

There's no clear definition of what is and isn't allowed in this society. So it becomes easy for people to judge others based on their own opinions. Every individual has their own opinion of what is "inappropriate". And this opinion will keep on changing, and changing, as they become more exposed to the world around them. So what you didn't approve of yesterday, could very well be something that you're gonna do tomorrow. 

Whenever we criticize others for doing something, chances are, we do the same. Or at least have done it before. Come on. Everyone makes mistakes right? Even you. And when you were making them, there were probably others that were looking down on you too. Did it feel great? To have people scrutinize your every move? Did it feel great to be so cautious of your actions that you couldn't even be yourself anymore? 

Majority of the time, once we have a grudge against someone, everything they do is going to upset us. And we're going to have to deal with that. As much as I'd like to, I can't go around blaming someone for something they didn't do. I also can't make a big deal out of something that just, isn't. Don't throw daggers at someone out of anger, then regret it later. Have some reason behind the things you say. 

So much of what we think of others, is based on what we've heard. And so much of what we've heard, has been exaggerated, or even made up. By someone who probably only knew half the story. You don't know someone, until you know someone. 

Think about it. How many times have we met somebody that we first thought to be unpleasant, and then we came to realize that they're actually a nice person? And it's because we got influenced by something someone decided to say, out of their anger, or out of their judgement. 

Let's be honest. You be yourself, people talk. You don't be yourself, people talk. People are going to talk either way. If you're gonna piss someone off, at least do it being yourself, so you have nothing to regret later on. People are going to decide what they know about you, from what they hear and what they see. They are going to decide what kind of person you are, from what you wear and who you talk to. 

It's funny how people always have something to talk about. To criticize you about. And the people that talk the most, know you the least. But the people that do know who you are, and what you're like, aren't going to be shaken by rumors. It'll take time, but you'll find the these people. And when you do, you'll have

nothing to fear. ❤

Politics.

It's a game we all play. Whether we're 16 or we're 60.

Remember when things were so simple back when we were kids? There was never a need to plot, or scheme. No need for gossip, or revenge. It's so hard to know now, who you can trust and who you can't. Many people hide their true intentions and personalities from everyone else. And a lot of people would backstab, and manipulate others, just to get what they want.

Having been in an all girls school my whole life, I have experienced countless of cases like these. Where there's a small group of friends, around five to six, and they seem like the most closely knit group in the class. But then, you start to realize one by one, that they all secretly hate each other. And everyone knows it, except them themselves. It's such a joke.

I'm sure it's happened to all of us before. And of course it hurts. When you finally know the truth. Especially if it came from someone you really trusted. I still don't get it. If I did something that annoyed you, or hurt you, why not just come to me about it? Why talk about it behind my back? And if I really get under your skin so much, why not just leave? Stop pretending to be my friend. No one wants someone to be nice to them, only because they were told to be.

And you know the part I hate the most? Watching them lie to my face when I already know what they think of me. What are you so scared of? Me finding out that you really don't like me? If I'm that bad a person, why are you still pretending that everything's all fine and dandy? And if you expect that I would do the same to you, you're wrong. I'd confront you in a second. I don't need anybody in my life who doesn't want to be there.

Contrary to popular belief, the truth is not overrated. I'd rather have someone tell me to my face what I've done wrong than to make me wonder what the hell I did. I don't wanna keep having to guess what offence I've committed this time. I don't wanna keep having to apologize only months after an incident happened, just because no one bothered to tell me about it. And I don't want to play this game. 

Anyone can be nice to you when you're popular. And have your back when you're up. But a real friend, is your friend when it's not convenient to be. When it's not easy to be. When everyone else walks out on you, they aren't ashamed to be there. Those are the people that have been there all along.

So, yes. I am starting to know who my true friends are. A warning to anyone who's actually reading this, fake friends can be more cruel than real enemies. No one wins here, y'know. If you're trying to prove what an amazing actor you are, then job well done. I applaud your performance. 

But if you actually give a damn about me, you'd be straight with me. It's almost everywhere I go now. Has it become such a necessity to play politics? To pretend to be nice to everyone just so we'll appear to be like angels? I guess it has. Sigh. Just one more skill I'll have to teach my future kids so they'll survive in this twisted world.

Careful, honey, before you step outside today. Keep your game face on, and don't forget how to play.